A grief journey is a lot like going on a diet. In the beginning, the weight is so heavy it seems an impossible task to lose. Plus, the path to wellness is filled with confusing advice and opinions. How does one reach a healthy goal? Try one diet plan, lose a couple of pounds. The next day feel so overwhelmed by the loss that the weight on your heart gets even heavier. It’s a real yo-yo ride.
It’s been this way with my blog. So anxious to write William’s story in hopes of shedding 100 pounds of sadness quickly, I neglected, in fact, to do it with long term benefits. After all these years of writing, I may have lost 95% of my sadness, but from a technology point of view, I haven’t lost an ounce. Poor planning and lack of knowledge on my part seems to have compounded my grief by not creating the back end of the blog the best that it could be. Like dieting there is no quick fix. A new grief journey diet was much needed.
Like a Fork in the Road
I’ve known about my blog technology issues for quite some time. You may not see the problems on the surface, but behind the scenes they are huge. The motivation to be better was there and even the inspiration, but the clarity of how to fix was not. It was hard to admit, but I knew I could not change technology problems that I did not understand. The work would be too hard. Like a fork in the road I had a choice to make.
It came to a point that I wasn’t doing William or you, my readers, justice and I thought about abandoning the blog completely. I felt like I had failed him, me and maybe most importantly you. The weight was so heavy. In fact, I felt so terrible about it that I actually apologized out loud to my son. Later that day, I met Sireesha (Siri). Over the years, William has brought many gifts into my life. Siri is the latest addition.
Did you notice?
Have you noticed the blog looks different? Siri is an amazing and brilliant young woman. Not only did she bring the clarity on how to improve the blog, but also a kind and gentle teaching style that I can relate to. The journey to blog wellness is much like the grief journey. Being better doesn’t happen overnight. There is no quick fix. She is guiding me one step at a time until I have reached my goal to make the blog the best that it can be. It is a huge work in progress, so bear with me as I get it done. The reward is that I honor my son to the best of my ability while providing a better blog experience for you.
Gratitude for a new year
In this new year, as I approach the 10 year anniversary of William’s death, I want you to know how grateful I am that you continue to take this journey with me. Truth is that losing that last 5 pounds of grief on my heart is unrealistic. However, losing the actual blog issues is totally doable. Moving forward, I promise to continue to test my recipes and to recommend only quality products that I love. Further, I promise to provide honest answers to all your questions in the comments. If there are recipes that you are looking for or have questions about, I am here to help. If you are trapped in your grief I am here to listen and maybe bring a bit of clarity.